sorry to anybody apart from the below who ended up reading the last entry. I had a major problem i needed to desperately rid myself of. Well thigns have changed. I have fell in love with the singleton's life. I enjoy being on my own, there are no ties, no promises to others, no worries about loyalty, and certainly no worries about unecessary and unappreciated demands. I must say I am deeply impressed by Vittorio Grigolo, and not just his voice believe me. He has a wonderful, and beautiful voice, that hits deep into the soul, but he also has a fairly intriguing and interesting body. Very well built from what i can tell! i also like Josh Groban, but that is just his voice. Katherine Jenkins is purely the voice. Don't worry i don't fancy her.

Oh and Mrs Mansell, you know who you are if you are looking at this, please stop talking about me behind my back and telling Sam that u have seen pictures of my boyfriend on my website. None of my website's even mention him! Stop lying to people and leave me alone. I don't want to know what you think so leave me alone, do not try and contact me, like you I want nothing more to do with my mother, you manage to alienate so many people and you don't even realise you are doing it. Oh and don't cause trouble about this either, because his time I will bite back. I do NOT want to talk to you!!!

All hallow's eve, my favourite time of the year. The time of the year when the truth is shown. Spirits are at unrest for 11 days, because yes, originally hallowe'en celbrations began on all hallows eve and lasted for the 11 days that the gateway to the spirit world is open, but it also the time when the gateway to the land of faerie is thin, and this is a time when mischief runs amock in the world as faeries come crsahing through into our world and wreak havoc on the world as we know it. If you are going to be carving pumpkins this year, give them smily hapy faces, if you give them malevolent faces then you are infact inviting malevolent spirits into your celebrations. Halloween is no longer a big deal, with only very few people bothering to do anything about or for it. My family and I have a massive party every year, i will report on events after the 11 days of festivities. :)

I beheld a rather strange and wondrous dream last night and i wish to record it here. I dreamed of my future and of the children that i would bear. They are magnificent. I had three altogether, two girls and one boy. All three were gifted and intelligent from an early age. I had followed the career path which i so desperately aim for now. I was a top class English teacher in one of the best secondary school's in Britain. As an english teacher, i had taught my children to read and write from a very early age, and in my dream i bore witness to all of their achievements, including a rather old fashioned ideal of poetry recital, and using their spare time to write poetry and short stories. The novel that i am currently working on had been published and had even risen into the top 10 bestsellers of the year. All i can do now is work hard on everything i do, and aim for that which i have already seen. My children will be brilliant and will be famous for their intelligence, i also aim to give them a little gift when they are ready, the gift of faith, i will instruct them in the old ways, show them the way they would have lived had they been born six hundred years ago. i will also allow for them to learn of other religions so that they may choose that which they think the most appropriate for their life style. I can now only hope that what i am beginning to see and realise now will be enough for me to reach that not too distant result of happiness.

well today is the day of the midsummer solstice, i am going to have a small celebration later on this afternoon when my parents are out. They don't like me lighting candles in the house so i'm going to celebrate in the back garden instead, at least then the natural surroundings may help me feel more comfortbale. i only hope that maybe they will understand and not take it as some foolish phase, they started me on this path when my step mother did my first ever tarot reading, if she had known the 'consequences' of her actions then, i am certain she would never have gone ahead with it, and i would not be where i am today. I am attempting to keep my college life and my worship seperate. Today for the first time i walked to college. This was partly out of necessity as i have misplaced my busspass... despite this obviou misfortune i rather enjoyed the fresh air and the exerise. I have also begun to reread Mary Shelley's Frankenstein, in preparation for my Coursework for next year.

The coils of a Serpent hidden within the branches of the Willow protect two scarlet-colored eggs containing the infinite potential of the World. A beautiful young maiden who has been chosen Queen of the May holds the branches of the tree. She will preside over the Beltane celebrations...a fire festival held on the first day of May. The roots of the Willow tap into the Sacred Spring of the mysterious and awe-inspiring aspect of the Lunar Goddess who is known as the Cailleach. It is this deity who is depicted within a dark cavern under the tree, seated upon a silver throne.